I just realized that I haven’t blogged since before Christmas! That is super crazy! I have a list of everything that needs to be blogged…but I’ve been feeling pretty gross for about 4 months now. And it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that means that we have some news to share with clients, friends, family…you know, the whole world out there on the internet. I feel like it’s only the right thing to do since you were all here this time last year when we lost our sweet baby at 16 weeks (by the way, we found out a month later that he was a boy and we named him Parker)…and so our journey continues. Being a wedding photographer and a husband and wife team we tried to time things so we would have a baby somewhere not in the middle of the season…and we got pregnant two more times in 2010 and lost both babies at around 6 weeks. Just when we were going to take a break for a while because man it can get hard losing babies and hopes and dreams…I got pregnant again and realized that sometimes I might think I have all of the control in the world, but really, the fate of our lives, and the twists and turns….they aren’t up to me. The stars aligned and we didn’t have any weddings booked for the few weeks leading up to the birth and not until 10 days after the due date which is perfect because Mike won’t have to worry about missing the baby’s arrival!
This pregnancy I am nervous, I didn’t really believe that my body could carry a baby anymore…I think we were pretty shocked in general. We were already booked for the season and Mike and I talked about how it would all work out…we have amazingly talented friends here in the Boston area who are all quite skilled with a camera…they are the photographers we ask to shoot important events for us…we shoot their weddings, we meet with them all the time, we trade leads when we’re already booked and we’re more than 100% confident that they’ll be able to pull us through this summer when I will miss some time for maternity leave…and then I would think, I don’t even know if this baby is going to make it. Well here we are at 18 weeks today and things are still perfectly normal…progressing fine. Baby is happy and squirmy and growing and alive and looked perfect on the ultrasound yesterday…so I think I’m going to have to start believing that we may in fact have a baby at the end of this long, long journey.
(I wish we had a better picture, but the baby wouldn’t sit still for his portrait!)
I know this is good news for us, but I also I know it might make some of our brides whose wedding are right after our due date (July 20) a little bit apprehensive…I just wanted to remind you that we really do have an amazing group of friends who are going to help us out…last year when we lost Parker we left a lot of holes in the calendar preparing for him to be here…and we sat around on those weekends with no weddings missing our baby and missing what we love doing most…getting out there and capturing beautiful weddings. The way the timing worked for this pregnancy, by the time I knew I was pregnant we already had a pretty solid calendar and I realized that was really was for the best–I have the utmost faith that Mike will be able to capture a wedding with another lead photographer and the only one who will be missing out is me. I’m going to be emailing individual brides with the name of the person who will be shooting with Mike on the day of your wedding so you can add them to your blog reader and start the stalking :) Nothing else has changed…we still promise unbelievable wedding pictures…the only sad one is me who doesn’t get to be in two places at once–but the good news is I still get to relive the wedding day via the images, the slide show, and the albums that I get to create!
Emmie and Chase are beyond excited!!